Wobbly-free zone

[stephbg]

There's a lot to be said for letting it all hang out.



After my little bingle this afternoon I gave myself a bit of time to scatter and then regather my wits before facing peak hour traffic to drive home. I sat in my car and after a bit did a spot of shaking and crying. A bit of deep breathing was required on the way home, but once in the safety of casa mia I just let go and let myself have a damn good cry. Wobblies were chucked with complete abandon. Go stress hormones, go!

And now I feel completely fine (actually a lot better than this morning - I think I purged some residual stress in the face of something nice and obvious to stress at). I feel quite able to face the paperwork and whatever needs to be done, and I no longer feel like cancelling everything under the sun in my immediate future.

So yes, it was a tiny carpark collision, but at the time it was the most important thing in my little universe and I let it be and let it run. Now the experience has gone back in its little inconvenience box where it belongs*.

My therapist would be so proud of me :P

(*) Remind me of that once I start bitching about the paperwork.

Comments

[stephbg.livejournal.com]

It felt like the right thing to do, and I didn't want to get in the way. No artificial restraints, no voices telling me to be brave, buck up, or shut up. I'm starting to see parallels in natural horsemanship. I may explain that later if anyone's interested.

[callistra.livejournal.com]

I'd be interested.

And yes, I've locked myself in the shower and just cried. It can be such a stress relief.