Wobbly-free zone

[stephbg]

There's a lot to be said for letting it all hang out.



After my little bingle this afternoon I gave myself a bit of time to scatter and then regather my wits before facing peak hour traffic to drive home. I sat in my car and after a bit did a spot of shaking and crying. A bit of deep breathing was required on the way home, but once in the safety of casa mia I just let go and let myself have a damn good cry. Wobblies were chucked with complete abandon. Go stress hormones, go!

And now I feel completely fine (actually a lot better than this morning - I think I purged some residual stress in the face of something nice and obvious to stress at). I feel quite able to face the paperwork and whatever needs to be done, and I no longer feel like cancelling everything under the sun in my immediate future.

So yes, it was a tiny carpark collision, but at the time it was the most important thing in my little universe and I let it be and let it run. Now the experience has gone back in its little inconvenience box where it belongs*.

My therapist would be so proud of me :P

(*) Remind me of that once I start bitching about the paperwork.

Comments

[shrydar.livejournal.com]

Go you :-)

[kathrynlinge.livejournal.com]

Crying is good.

[stephbg.livejournal.com]

It felt like the right thing to do, and I didn't want to get in the way. No artificial restraints, no voices telling me to be brave, buck up, or shut up. I'm starting to see parallels in natural horsemanship. I may explain that later if anyone's interested.

[callistra.livejournal.com]

I'd be interested.

And yes, I've locked myself in the shower and just cried. It can be such a stress relief.

[ariaflame.livejournal.com]

The shaky feeling is a bitch isn't it?

[stephbg.livejournal.com]

At the time it certainly was. It will be interesting to see if it sneaks up on me again now I think I've dealt with it. Hmmm, that sounds suspiciously like post traumatic shock syndrome. Here's hoping it never happens.

Although in a strange way the memory is not entirely unpleasant now that I've divorced it from the negative emotional response. I think I might have just got a glimpse of the life of an adrenaline junkie.

Are you all settled after your backender earlier this year?

[ariaflame.livejournal.com]

Just over a year ago now, (doesn't time fly). And yes, on the whole. The trickiest bit I think was (apart from the annoying filling in of forms at police stations that only open during 'working hours') the next month or so coming up to the junction where it happened. It's mostly faded now, which is good given the number of times I use that junction.