Another day, another milestone
Oct. 14th, 2010 11:23 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
stephbgIt's been a busy week. Yesterday I turned 40, and discovered a whole new world. I'm a believer in rites of passage, and I feel I have come through the other side as someone not different than before, but someone full of new possibilities.
Today was the second anniversary of the loss of my brother Dave. It also felt like a rite of passage of sorts. Husband took me to the beach so I could have a quite moment of reflection. The beach was a special place to Dave. Maybe he felt he was part seagull; he certainly liked to steal other people's chips :-)
I write to you my friends as I wrote to my family:
I've just returned from a visit to the beach in Dave's name. I'm sure you won't mind that I carried you all along with me in my heart.
It was beautiful outside, and a blistering sea breeze chopped the water into blue and white. My hair is full of sand and my skin is covered in salt. My eyes are full of sand *and* salt. He'd have loved it.
You were there with me too.
In a few days time there will be a party to enjoy and from which to recover. I have bravely booked myself in for a major ACS event at the Hyatt on Tuesday: FREE SOFTWARE IN ETHICS AND PRACTICE - RICHARD STALLMAN
The following weekend will be the family party for the multitudes of Librans, including my 40th and Shannon's 18th (Eldest Niece has a name of her own now). Mum's 74 and Husband's 48. He says he no longer feels like a cradle-snatcher now that I've joined him in the same decade.
After that I believe I will be able to draw breath again and concentrate on my health. The B12 experiment is going well in the sense that I've had no preservative reaction. Whether the B12 itself will help is a longer term study.
I'm still having neuromuscular problems which are stealing my spoons. A couple of days after I postulated that my subconscious was letting me know I was wildly distressed I'm not entirely convinced either way. On the bright side I've got great "muscle" tone on my legs right now. I've allowed myself some moments of sadness and some memories of joy. Perhaps that will be enough.
Today was the second anniversary of the loss of my brother Dave. It also felt like a rite of passage of sorts. Husband took me to the beach so I could have a quite moment of reflection. The beach was a special place to Dave. Maybe he felt he was part seagull; he certainly liked to steal other people's chips :-)
I write to you my friends as I wrote to my family:
I've just returned from a visit to the beach in Dave's name. I'm sure you won't mind that I carried you all along with me in my heart.
It was beautiful outside, and a blistering sea breeze chopped the water into blue and white. My hair is full of sand and my skin is covered in salt. My eyes are full of sand *and* salt. He'd have loved it.
You were there with me too.
In a few days time there will be a party to enjoy and from which to recover. I have bravely booked myself in for a major ACS event at the Hyatt on Tuesday: FREE SOFTWARE IN ETHICS AND PRACTICE - RICHARD STALLMAN
The following weekend will be the family party for the multitudes of Librans, including my 40th and Shannon's 18th (Eldest Niece has a name of her own now). Mum's 74 and Husband's 48. He says he no longer feels like a cradle-snatcher now that I've joined him in the same decade.
After that I believe I will be able to draw breath again and concentrate on my health. The B12 experiment is going well in the sense that I've had no preservative reaction. Whether the B12 itself will help is a longer term study.
I'm still having neuromuscular problems which are stealing my spoons. A couple of days after I postulated that my subconscious was letting me know I was wildly distressed I'm not entirely convinced either way. On the bright side I've got great "muscle" tone on my legs right now. I've allowed myself some moments of sadness and some memories of joy. Perhaps that will be enough.
