FemmeConne Aftermath

[stephbg]

I have awoken from femmeconne Recovery Snooze #1 and have scraped up sufficient strength to thank my fellow con-goers for an interesting couple of days.



In many ways the event was as I both feared and expected, although the official program did not feature heavily.

The program was like a snowflake: formed in the upper atmosphere from the seed of an idea, attracting smaller crystals to form a thing of unique beauty. On its journey to the earth it was blown about by unexpected flurries and zephyrs of wind, yet it floated gently to land in safety in a place no-one could have quite predicted. There it began to melt, losing its fine structure, but giving up its water to nurture the land and to travel downstream to feed rivers, caress fish and smooth the ancient rocks.

I'll be ready for that next time and will leave my watch at home.

I am struggling with conflicting voices that on one hand urge me to apologise for not being a more active participant, and on the other note with scorn that that was not the point at all and no-one but myself would chastise myself for it.

I did squish some soup.

The wedding made me feel sad (actually quite wretched at points), for I realised that I could not in all conscience make those vows to myself. However, it has given me a set of new goals and I would like to get a copy of the vows and pin them up somewhere as a checklist. Maybe next year.


I'll restrict additional details about individual panels, dormitory life, finding pretty rocks and seeing horsies to my own lj.

Comments

[transcendancing.livejournal.com]

This is one of the most beautiful and heartfelt accounts of a convention that I've read. I think you said it perfectly.

I think leaving your watch at home is a good idea - and with so much structure in my life, I always find the way Femmeconne meanders a little to be just right - the things that need to happen, happen, most discussions happen - but not always when expected, and that kind of flexibility allows me to relax and enjoy those around me, their thoughts and voices and appreciate also being 'away' and not having to think about any number of stresses... it also allows me to spend time on others that i don't often get to do.

I also find that it provokes a strong sense of continuance in those around us, future discussions on topics - especially for those things that didn't get covered, other learning activities that people were interested in through conversations like, flour milling, bread making, gardening, and other things.

I like the new faces I got to meet and spend some time with. I love that I got to sit by the bonfire with you as the panel started and your massage was just lovely.

Last and most importantly, I am glad that it looks like you'll come again, and more than that - your goals are very courageous and noble - i wish you all the very best with them, and if you want to catch up and chat or tackle something specific and need an ear or a hug, i'd be happy to help if i can...

[stephbg.livejournal.com]

Thank you. You're a fascinating person and I was very happy to lend you my stick.

[transcendancing.livejournal.com]

It was a good stick.... ;)

[callistra.livejournal.com]

So is this a vote against my purchasing three timers for next year?
:-)

[transcendancing.livejournal.com]

Hell no - purchase away ^_^

We'll never see a stick like that again... ;)

[stephbg.livejournal.com]

I'll take a wild guess that you were responding to the bit in my main post about leaving my watch at home. Unless you're under the impression that the stick in question was a sundial...

It was The World's Best Marshmallow Toasting Stick(tm) actually.

Kitchen timers are wonderful things. I couldn't live without mine. I'm not much of a recipe follower, but I love a cooking schedule :-)

[callistra.livejournal.com]

I love timers too. And nah, the timer thing had already come up in other conversations and was more a poke at Mynxii's comment about enjoying the relaxed nature of panels.
:-)
I was very sad when my timer broke. So I downloaded one. But not as much fun!

[sassamifrass.livejournal.com]

I hope this doesn't sound creepy, but - *comments*

*grin* ...yours was one of the few usernames I still can attach to an actual person post-con!

[stephbg.livejournal.com]

Mmmmmm. Creepy.

And your LJ name, my dear *looks stern*, took a bit of finding (got there via wolflullaby's flist). 'Twas not something I could remember how to spell...

Worth the effort however, as you seem to be a very interesting person. We even share professional interests so I look forward to chatting again.