A case of nuts

[stephbg]

Much to my joy I did another 3 hours at the office this morning, this time with BYO ergonomic furniture. I need to clock up a few more hours in the chair to be sure, but my left leg and arm appear to approve of the new angles. It's a kneel chair I've had for many years. I think I wrote most of my project management essays on it so I've clocked up multiple-hour sessions before with some success.



I was very pleased with work today: I'm starting to recover the old semi-instinctive multi-threaded approach. I found myself indexing, cross-referencing, researching, writing, planning, and tagging all at once. It's not concentration I lacked, but multi-threading.

And just in time, today I've started therapy with a new counsellor, Y. I wasn't immediately impressed with her elicitation methods and expressions of encouragement, but nor was I fatally put off. I can work with her I think, if I can break her of her enthusiastic kindy teacher methods.

I think. Apparently that's the problem :P And I'm supposed to challenge my geeky thought processes, and learn to give myself a break from logic and science once in a while. Hypothesis testing (which I refused to call "trial and error"), and evidence are off the agenda. Like that's going to happen. Pfft. And try to recover from the Catholic programming. Again. She practically jumped in her chair when I said the C word.

She doesn't quite get me yet--it threw her when I said I liked to look at flowers--but I think she'll provide useful prompts to help us both get somewhere. She did utter the magic words I've heard so often before: "Most people..."

I am not most people. And proud of it. But a little messed up.

BTW How does one "just feel" as opposed to observing and reporting on one's feelings? Is that what's meant by integration? Losing one's internal editor and social secretary? Sounds disasterous. I suppose I have work to do: wish me luck.

Comments

[redbraids.livejournal.com]

It is OK to make decisions based on emotions, not logic ;-)

Stilling the mind is a hard thing. Focussing on _being_ rather than observing. I have found tha meditation helps. Is this something you do/have tried? Mindfulness-style.

[stephbg.livejournal.com]

I was under the impression that I was quite good at mindfulness... when I remember to do it. It's why I can spend so much time watching clouds, plants, and animals. And why I can stroke cats and cat-people for an hour :-)

[stephbg.livejournal.com]

And I am *so* wearing your shirt to therapy next week.

[rabbit1080.livejournal.com]

Yay!

[redbraids.livejournal.com]

That is cool :-)