Thoughts

[stephbg]

I have fought the good fight for long enough and must now accept that it might be a fight I cannot win. I do not concede defeat; I concede only the possibility of defeat. And with that thought I rob my defeat of its terror and power over me, and it becomes but an alternative. I have stopped fighting, for now I cannot lose.

I can exist and be loved even if I am not clever.

Comments

[transcendancing.livejournal.com]

*purrry snuggles and love*

I'm thinking of you.

[stephbg.livejournal.com]

I so desperately want to spend some time with you soon. Could that be possible?

[transcendancing.livejournal.com]

That would be lovely - would you be interested in coming up to visit me in Walliston where i am petsitting furry animals of wonderfulness? it's beautiful up there and i'll be up there from Tuesday evening till saturday :) *loves*

[callistra.livejournal.com]

Can I tag along? Mynxii can drive me if we're organised
:-)
I can sit quietly if you like!

[stephbg.livejournal.com]

I'd be more than happy to share her with you :-)

[writerjo.livejournal.com]

http://www.middlemiss.org/lit/authors/denniscj/bookforkids/triantiwontigongolope.html

Apropros of nothing, this poem somehow seems very you. When I read it to Rafael I always think of you, especially when I get to: 'but it purrs and purrs quite proudly if you call it by its name'.

[callistra.livejournal.com]

*hugs*
I think cleverness is written into your mitochondria. I don't think you're going to lose that.

[baby-elvis.livejournal.com]

Honey, you can't help being clever- it is who you are. But, please do not ever feel that we expect you to perform that cleverness for our entertainment.

[bunny-m.livejournal.com]

I have fought the good fight for long enough and must now accept that it might be a fight I cannot win.

Often it is the fights that cannot be won that are the most important to fight regardless.

Doubt not that you are an inspiration to others, and a fine example of grace under durance most vile.

[redbraids.livejournal.com]

I am not quite sure how people define clever and so on, but I do know that it is whether people are great company and admirable people which is more important. I know M texted me in excitement when you said you were dropping by today :-)

[stephbg.livejournal.com]

I had a great time today. He's a very good cat, with better taste in cars than my kitties :-)

[redbraids.livejournal.com]

AND he is toilet trained!

[wolflullaby.livejournal.com]

I've been going through these exact same thoughts recently. I am so afraid of looking weak or stupid or of failing, and it leaves me anxious and afraid to make decisions for fear of it being the 'wrong' decision.

It helps me to think of myself as being whole and complete. I am no greater than or less than anyone or anything else. Nothing I do wrong can make me any less perfect or less complete than I am now, likewise nothing I do right can make me any more perfect or more complete than I am now.

I believe in the energy of the universe (what some would call God, chi, etc), and I believe this energy has no preference. Does water like people better if they are old or young? Does electricity prefer smart people to dumb people? No... I am infinitely and unconditionally accepted for who I am no matter who I am, and I never have to prove anything by being smart, beautiful or right.

Not sure if it helps you, but I have been finding that it helps me. I feel more calm and at peace just by writing it down. ^___^

I am also trying to get away from the ingrained notion that achieving more is better, or makes you a better person. It is pervasive in our society, and I am trying to focus more on being and less on doing.