Thoughts

[stephbg]

I have fought the good fight for long enough and must now accept that it might be a fight I cannot win. I do not concede defeat; I concede only the possibility of defeat. And with that thought I rob my defeat of its terror and power over me, and it becomes but an alternative. I have stopped fighting, for now I cannot lose.

I can exist and be loved even if I am not clever.

Comments

[wolflullaby.livejournal.com]

I've been going through these exact same thoughts recently. I am so afraid of looking weak or stupid or of failing, and it leaves me anxious and afraid to make decisions for fear of it being the 'wrong' decision.

It helps me to think of myself as being whole and complete. I am no greater than or less than anyone or anything else. Nothing I do wrong can make me any less perfect or less complete than I am now, likewise nothing I do right can make me any more perfect or more complete than I am now.

I believe in the energy of the universe (what some would call God, chi, etc), and I believe this energy has no preference. Does water like people better if they are old or young? Does electricity prefer smart people to dumb people? No... I am infinitely and unconditionally accepted for who I am no matter who I am, and I never have to prove anything by being smart, beautiful or right.

Not sure if it helps you, but I have been finding that it helps me. I feel more calm and at peace just by writing it down. ^___^

I am also trying to get away from the ingrained notion that achieving more is better, or makes you a better person. It is pervasive in our society, and I am trying to focus more on being and less on doing.